sigh

sigh

forgive my bipolar self, but past few days in La Canada were unbelievable boring and shit wasted.
2/3 days wasted
if 2nd semester is like this, i might as well try in school.
why...
other cities are completely fine.
im just going to drive myself around i guess. party poopers... :/

aite nvm they were fine, they just could have been better

Celebration

Celebration

Yay words can't describe how happy I am that last week has come to an end...
but I hate waiting for results...
So since 1st semester is over, what should i do?
I think I wrote what to do in another blog, so I'll look at that.

I WANT TO GO TO KOREA

yeah.. words can't describe, so I'll just stop here.



My favorite musicians:

Epik High, Dynamic Duo, Drunken Tiger, Supreme Team, Double K, 산이, 리쌍
Nas, Eminem, Lupe, Kanye, Jay-Z, Biggie

J, Belle Epoque, Casker, Clazziquai, Rumblefish, Loveholic, 이수영, 이정현

Vivaldi, Satie, Mozart, Chopin

Others:
Dear by Mad Soul Child
Touche Mon Amour by Winterplay
Recent Dok2 Album
G.NA's new album
Lucite Tokki
Something About Us & Da Funk by Daft Punk
The xx
But I Love U by G-Dragon

I really like IU's voice, but I wish she would sing better songs. I like her acoustics.
Yankie should hurry up and come back. And Tablo should too.
And CRS should make an album... Everyone is so busy tho..
But then again, Detox should drop as well. lol..

Who am I?

Who am I?

I am Daniel. I am a boy. I am Korean. I am a dreamer. A musician. An artist. A student. A Christian. A missionary. An INFP. A Streetlight. A five.

french

french

lent et douloureux,
lent et triste,
lent et grave,
c'est la vie.
au revoir, ce soir je suis desole.

tiger moms

tiger moms

Today I read an articles in Times about some bitch 'tiger mom.' They are the typical Chinese mothers that push there sons and daughters to the extreme, forcing them to excel in the classics and typically violin or piano. If test scores is what they want, test scores is what they'll get but they gotta kill a child's childhood for that shit.

The article was arguing that America was laggin' compared to China in test scores and that these types of parents were good. They even argue that it is for love, and it develops essential skills. Of course, the mom regrets calling the kid 'garbage' or getting pissed for her daughter getting second place, but she says it's all out of love. If that's out of love, fuck love, cause I would rather not be loved.



oh yeah, did I mentions that MID YEAR REPORTS ARE SO STUPID
i can't believe im doing this shit alll over again..
fjasklfjsdklfjklfds
not happy.

im going sam.. stressed as a motherfucker

그대만 있다면

그대만 있다면

Go! Go! Go out and do everything you want to do!
It's a voice I hear everyday.
But most of the time, I ignore it.
Go out and have fun!
Go tell that girl that you like her!
Go punch that guy in the face!
But... No...
I'm scared.
Maybe not scared, maybe it's the parents, maybe its the personality.
But I just can't do anything I want to these days.
People see paint on my hands and they assume the worst and snitch on me.
My dad finds street signs in my closet and thinks I'm a criminal.
My mom thinks I'm insane because I threw an ax at my fridge in my garage.
I was about to throw it at the car because I was angry.
Is life short? 17 years seemed like it took a long time.
But like always, in retrospect, it went by fast, faster than I could ever take back.
And every opportunity slipped by unnoticed.
And there were even times when I noticed it too, but I didn't try to stop it.
I.. don't know...
Life just goes on, because time waits for no one.

too emotional? eh who reads this anyways.
if you do read this <3

Pieces

Pieces

A person is made up of many different pieces to themselves, pieces of identity.
This means that everyone can see each other in a different way.
A can see me in a totally different way than B does, and so can C.
So then, who can we truly determine who we are?
That is up to us, regardless of what others think.
But then, why does what we think matter, if it is only subjective?
Because it compromises our internal integrity of being.
But, do not confuse this with thinking that you are always right, because time has proved time and time again that humans are filled with fault.
Thus, an essential part of who were comes from that balance we seek between our internal integrity and our outside identity.
Who we are is a balance between who we THINK we are and who we ACTUALLY are to others.
And ultimately, the deciding factor is who we OBJECTIVELY are, in the eyes of God.
When all of those pieces of identity are put together, a person comes alive.

Be generous&kind.
Be sensible.
Be perceptive.
Be aware.
Be strong-willed.
Be yourself.

Red Ribbon Week

Red Ribbon Week

Red Ribbon Week was a while ago. My AP Gov teacher told us to write an essay on a prompt.

What can the community of La Cañada (parents/adults, local government, law
enforcement, students, etc.) do to help prevent underage alcohol usage?

This society has no hope for any source of revival in this alcohol drenched, corrupted age. The only hope can come from a flood, much like Noah’s ark, to wipe out any source of infidelity and sludge. Our coexistence with the filth of society should no longer be stood against. The proposal is this: wipe out all current members of ASB, and have them replaced by others who are more capable. Members of ASB should be leaders, leaders in terms of morality and a leader in terms of what is right. If those leaders themselves are chosen through a popularity vote, that shows the corruption in the election process. Those people are not qualified for their jobs, neither are they leader our school to a better place. Often times they indulge in alcohol themselves. They are a masquerade to school, a disheveled mess that goes against the very nature of what our school, and America itself was founded upon.

The problem with our society is that we are part of a conformist age, an age that is so stuck up upon the rule and cultures of the norm. At this point in time drinking, partying, and being “popular” is the wanted norm. Popularity doesn’t even matter in society, it’s just a twisted social pyramid based upon the whims of the good looks and being an asshole. And yet, it is these people that are setting the trends and what we do. These people drink. And because they are popular and have influence, they make it popular to drink, so other people should drink.

I propose this solution: to wipe clean the brains of all students, except those with the highest GPA and SAT (because they are the most capable in life, as SAT and GPA exactly replicate what actuality is like) and have them set up an elitist society in which the brainless are subjugated to manual labor. In such a society, there will be no alcohol for the police to worry about, and the work will be done very efficiently. The ruling aristocracy will them exterminate the humans that are physically unfit and mentally instable to create a new race of elite, without alcoholism. These people will the hope of the future, the stock of society. New schools will be instituted to teach the mindless to love work and love money, so that they will strive for it more. This environment will be called “capitalism”. There will be no longer any mindless humans and the society will be clean of its filth.

You see, this solution works because the problem that is wrong with our society is exactly alcoholism. These weekly tirades of going out to house parties for a breath of fresh air from the manacles and stress of school are absolutely wrong, even to the liberal mind. The parties are so twisted in fact, we should not be allowed any freedom at all. Freedom should be outlawed. In fact, a new system of government should be installed to outlaw fun, and happiness, as these are already despised by our society. Uniformity should also be of concern. The liberty that the people have in this age is too much; it is a source of too much creative energy. Creativity is too dangerous in a society that loves money. Let the new world era reign on.

lol. in other words, Gov is such a retarded class. jokes.

Hip-Hop Club

Hip-Hop Club

La Canada's one and only.
You hear?

A Trip down Memory Lane:

A Trip down Memory Lane:

Things I remember off the top of my head:

1. Failing my licence test. FUCK THAT. (recent)
2. My dream. There was a cute girl and we were friends, yay how happy (: (recent)
3. Going up to get an award that wasn't mine at an award ceremony in 2nd grade because my friends told me it was mine.. lol.. (2nd grade)
4. Burning a huge tree in Justin's Backyard so that the fire department had to come, I got killed by my dad. (6th grade?)
5. Attacking Patrick with a kendo stick and throwing him into a cactus because I thought he was spray painting my potato cannon, but it was actually not spray paint, but a clear liquid. Felt pretty bad after. (elementary)
6. Making smoke bombs with David and having it light in my house. Panic, panic, panic. (last year?)
7. Justin shot an arrow into my window and broke it.
8. Going snowboard, and trying to show off to older kids and faceplanting on a rail, chipping my front tooth.
9. Going on a walk at 3 am with Joe and seeing wierd-ass La Canada people just standing in front of their windows.
10. Getting lost in the streets of Japan at 12 am with Tim and Sean and just losing hope, and finding it again. Considered sleeping on the streets. (last summer)
11. When I brought my new digicam into the waters of Indonesia (it was in my swim trunk pockets), and totally feeling like shit. (6 years ago?)
12. When Shawn shot the potato cannon straight in the air and almost landing on us.
13. Trying to get up to Justin's room through the balcony, and breaking the roof.
14. Taking a rain shower in Philipines (4 years ago?)
15. Playing in the mud of Cambodia. (6 years ago?)
16. Taking the photobooth picture in Korea with the Cambodia team and looking like a girl. (6 years ago?)
17. Secretely being fed dog at Cambodia. (6 years ago?)
18. Walking in the Islands of Philipines, and Charles borrowed my belt and screwed it up. Playing with crabs. (6 years ago?)
19. When I kneed Justin in the ribs when he stole my spot on the swings so that he needed a wheelchair. (6th grade)
20. Epik High Concert with Tim and Joe. Best. Concert. Ever. Fatass behind us was obnoxiously rude tho. (10th grade?)
21. Going to the huge tunnel at Devil's Gate Dam with Kevin and David. (couple months ago)
22. Convincing everyone that I was Danny Na's cousin. (7th or so grade)
23. Freestyling after Spanish summer school with Ryan and Vickie.
24. Watching Fight Club for the first time and totally blown away.
25. When Rebecca came to my house and we were going to watch Fight Club and got totally tricked by the blu-ray. (last year)
26. Freestyling in English Class and Ryan dropped a dope line about Jasmine. (10th grade)
27. When I had to wear a freaking ring.(10th grade)
28. Playing in the play house outside my house with Andy Han, and shoving ourself into small corners to play games. (elementary school)
29. Listening to Christina talk about her life and sitting there listening, becoming really tired, but really interested at the same time.
30. Conversation in Korea with Christina about life in general at the Bread Shop.
31. Watching 칭구 with the homies.
32. Making the snowboard box with Kevin and constructing it. (couple years ago)
33. Making my potato cannon with my dad, and trying to make match rockets for about 5 hours and ultimately failing. (elementary school)
34. Lauren asked me how to spell farm. I thought she was a total dumbass. (elementary school)
35. Working on a Egyptian Gods project with Justin in sixth grade.
36. Tutoring with Joon and hearing a story about how Jasmine screwed with his contacts on his phone.
37. Being in the shark group with Justin, Brenna and (sorry forgot your name) in sixth grade and almost getting a perfect score but not because I drew badly.
38. Going to the really tiny house in India and listening to the people. (last year)
39. Those days after psych when I would brag to Jay about how I talked to Rebecca.
40. That dance... Greatest moment of my life ever. Maybe not, but it felt like that at the moment.
41. Having the conversation with Senior at the food place in Japan.
42. Grass boarding with Kevin and Justin and almost getting busted by the cops. (couple years ago. 3?)
43. Ice blocking with Justin&sisters and white people. (same)
44. Going to throw water balloon at random people on Halloween and me hitting a little girl and everyone else calling me a total douche. (last halloween)
45. T-Ping this one girls house three times in a row, only to find out that it was not her house.
46. Reunion with my old friend Patrick, Jasmine and Justin at the Christmas party and going to Jack-in-the-box and Descanso afterwards. (Last Christmas)
47. In sixth grade when girl gave me hug for a dare.
48. Memorizing 10 out of 10 by 2pm. hm. (last last summer)
49. Those days when I was in love with 이정현. She was so good. (long ago)
50. Talking in football practice with Jo and just playing around. (last couple years)
51. When I could actually bench and clean a decent amount. (two years ago)
52. When I went to Whistler with Tim to snowboard. Sooo big and so fun. (one year ago?)
53. Trying to cut a piece of tape, but then accidentally cutting my finger and having it bleed profusely. (4-5th grade?)
54. When I was rollerblading and fell really badlly and scraped my knees.
55. Accidentally drinking alcohol (in the form of some soysauce??) and getting kinda buzzed in the Philippines.. On a mission.. sigh.
56. Going to ceramics with Kevin a couple days ago.
57. Seeing my aunt totally wasted. (many years ago)
58. Accidentally drinking soju (long long time ago)
59. When Senior and Mary drank 막걸리 at the airport (last summer)
60. Helping Jacqueline with her essays free, while I wrote Tim's friend's essay for $75 (couple years ago0
61. Sleeping the tent with Shorai and just talking till really late in Japan. (last summer)
62. When Madoka gave me the D and I put it on my forehead kept it there for a long time. (last summer)
63. Going sign ravishing with the elite crew (Kevin, David, Ben, Joe, Me) and almost failing on our first one and losing hope.(couple months ago)
64. When there was a fire in La Canada and Jasmine was sending me emails about how she thought her house was going to burn down and I was just chillin', and accepting my fate that maybe my house will burn down. (last last summer)
65. The regret that I just should have made a move for that one girl. (last last summer)
66. Those long nights doing Bio vocab with David.
67. Praying with Justin Yoon in Cambodia.
68. Playing 'fire' with Yujin, Brian, and Charles, and finding that Jack of Diamonds.
69. Poker days. On night in particular when I lost 20 dollars to eddie. In quarters. IN QUARTERS.
70. Asking Tablo if he wanted to eat Crab. (10th grade)
71. Taking a pee in the school trash can. I don't remember the details, but I remember it was late and the bathrooms were locked.
72. When Jasmine announced to our English class we were going to make a restaurant together. (10th grade)
73. When Sean made my myspace and wrote on that one girl's wall, devastating me. (7 years ago?)
74. Convincing Andy Han that if he peed on a dollar, it would become radioactive.
75. Digging holes in my backyard. (8th grade?)
76. My airsoft birthday party with the trenches in my backyard. (8th grade?)
77. When Yujin and Ray introduced me to Deborah, saying that she could be my 'arm candy', trying to hook me up.
78. Playing omgpop. So fun haha.
79. Meeting Boa and feeling like a Boss when i cut the whole line because of hook ups and talking to her for the longest time, so others didn't have a chance.
80. Getting in a car crash on Martin Luther King day with my friend.
81. Thomas, my good friend in fourth grade, and how we would talk and go to each others houses and play.
82. When I used to go to Eddie's house almost every day after school.
83. When I used to go to Albert's house almost every day after school.
84. Killing bees in my front yard.
85. Sleep overs with Tim, Senior, and Sean.
86. The Cousin Reunion in Korea.
87. Burning a hole in the carpet of my old town house.
88. When I was depressed as a mofo after getting rejected from a girl.
89. When me, David, and Joe went to NRB and just went apeshit.
90. Just hustling my cousin's bf in pool, but then ultimately letting him win.
91. When Charles and I went to go shoot the potato cannon at the park near his house and got scared after seeing a cop.
92. Feeding the homeless @ Skid Row. Really good experience.
93. Killing Cactus with Kevin and getting discovered by a group of girls, and booking it, thus securing the covenant.
94. Being good friends with Artin, and Max in 7th grade.
95. The first time I listened to 낙화 and White.
96. Fireworks in Korea with Brian and Alex.
97. The iCare CD promotion concert. Stage rapping is so fun. IF YOU KNOW THE LYRICS ㅠ.ㅠ
98. Rapping the Warning song with Victor and Tim.
99. When I did archery at the range. Those days were fun.
100. Getting pulled out of Bruno. Twice.

These are only 100 things that I can think of from the top of my head. Its so interesting how numerous amount of people create these memories, some being extremely insignificant in the eyes of the other person. But people step in and out of each other's lives all the times, always affecting and being affected by each other. The people I mentioned may not even remember these memories, but to me, they were pretty significant (significant enough for me to remember at the least). The memories came mostly as a chain, each one pretty much tied to the ones around them. It was just interesting to remember funny little things.

I love seeing people happy