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focus on the air around me
what is it saying?
the electric currents are deafening
pressuring
i must be an idiot lol
at least i should have some sort of purpose?
plummeting self esteem
just let me burn, why drag it on? is this some kind of sick torture?
first world minds always seem to be doing this to themselves
idiots, seeking some higher aspirations.
faulty people. prideful selfrighteous self seeking idiots
spite: a desire to hurt something or someone
if one has no purpose, then he doesn't matter
why exist in the first place?
useless people dictating the lives of useless people
why do i have a mouth?
why do i have a heart?
why do i have a conscience?
why fuck you.
what do you want? why?
if life was so hedonistic, then all should just sell their souls to the devil.
obviously there's more.
i dont want to talk to anyone
and i want to burn up my insides
in a towering flame
and engulf everyone else as well
but ill keep that to myself
and fuck you blog
for telling everyone about my secrets.
but of course i guess i do find some pleasure in somebody else reading a hidden diary of mine
gives myself some illusion of an audience.
does my face look sad?
wrong
under this face
is a pensive wrathful
hope longing
caged
wolf
animal