life expectations

life expectations

Well, for the past couple years or my life, I've been thinking about something relatively important to my life.

Despite that being the most vague statement ever, it's true, lol obviously. What to do with my life, how to live my life, and just my life in general and with direction it's headed and such and such such.

Even thinking about the broadest general idea of this concept is mind deafening and mentally draining... so ill type in lowercase to ease the drain.

as joseph injae fuckin kim wrote something of the same nature, and i will do something of the same sort, being the introspective fuck i am, and he is.

in no such particular order, these are put in, daniel says.

1. owner of cafe or bar.
a quite pleasing and cute sort of occupation, i suppose. the quiet life. but the probability of it having good business is only semi-likely and my business skills are questionable as well, as there are many more capable people than i. and if i do happen to find this job in my midst, i will live a quiet life, with bits and sprinkles of the business stress, and most likely i will regret no pursuing what i love most.

break.

a pretty bleak aspect me searching for some occupational time waster is that i hate doing things that i dont like to do. im so limited to what i like to do and i dont like to do many things.

2. law school.
lol fuck law school i hate school and i cant stand going to school for another 7 or so years fuck that shit and fuck the money that come with it gotdam. i just say that shit to people to make it look like im living a responsible sort of life you know? like hey what do wanna do? what major are you? oh im a english major. oh english major? what are you going to do with that? im prelaw you fuck and im gotdam responsible for my life. that sort of thing. and what joseph injae fuckin kim said.

3. missionary.
good honest to god life, but.... fuck. nuff said.

4. rap.
im fuckin awesome and this is the shit imma do. even if i fail, ill die gorgeous.

5. something illegal.
last option, but it will lead to a adventurous sort of life. i may not be able to handle to stress in between and i have to keep all ties with my people to a minimum for their protection and such as well. and also the prospect of going to jail so pretty scary, and i imagined one of my friends going to jail and i was sad. god will not be pleased as well.

6. ?

i think ill just end up lucky in the end. doors arent left open without reason you know?


ps forgive my blog becoming a peice of shit in the past month or so.. im just a really lazy writer