thought dump 5

thought dump 5

My day to day movements are somewhere between reflexive and habituated. They are more habituated than reflexive, but odd moments or different conversations might make me different, at least a bit from my mean self for a moment. The same goes for my mind and process of thinking. Most of my thoughts are habituated and ingrained within me. But this time it's a combination of reflexive and habituated.

Profound discoveries are usually the product of connecting seemingly unconnected details in a meaningful way in order to deduce a simple idea that binds them, and others in the same vein of being, together.

You can learn a lot about a person by examining their reflexes and habits. It's like mind reading. Most of the time, we can't contain our mind, and it leaks through things we do. Some people more than others. Instigating people brings these inner mechanics out faster.

There's an idea called "index to character" that serves this function in literature. Often, an author would place a seemingly daft and openly abrasive character within their novel so that the reader might garner some clues about the character from how they act and react to them. Often the seemingly noble characters are revealed to be assholes because you can determine a lot of someone's character on how they act towards a seemingly less intelligent or lower status person. Great and dignified people are shitty indexes to character because everyone is naturally inclined to treat them nicely anyway. Although it is a literary term, the idea still works in real life. How people treat seemingly stupid people, mentally handicapped, or disadvantaged minority's reveals a great deal about their prejudice and inner asshole self that wouldn't be revealed otherwise.

Parts of a person always seep through the hints they say or do. Parts of themselves they want to hide have a tendency to pop out during pressured or tense times. Or in moments of prejudice. Prejudice, or the fear of loving someone different than you, is usually a function of fear. Fear which translates into insecurity.

I'm still dwelling on the idea of resolution. I think life is always a process of "becoming" but it's not necessarily important what it is you strive to become because I don't think that there is an ideal version of self to obtain. Well, there may be in the religious realm, but those models are unrealistic to actually ever obtain. Same goes for relationships.