blue

blue

i am feeling unusually blue today. not for any solid or valid reason. i opened up this blog window hoping that i would find something to write about, but i dont have anything to write about. i dont even think i necessarily feel lonely, empty or sad either. i wrote 'blue' because it was vague enough to encapsulate how i am feeling, but i dont feel like putting words to it right now. yet i will try.

i dont care if its immature or trite, i want to -- at least for an hour or so -- disappear from this world. i dont want to exist just for a little bit. its funny how i was so excited yesterday. i think i am still that same person with many things to be excited about, but today i dont feel like acknoledging them -- or anyone or anything for that matter.

i think i will make a tune today. i think being blue encourages reckless behavior and laziness at the same time. just for a moment, i wish no consequences existed for anything. being blue like this is the epitome of being super self indulgent. but strangely, i dont even want to acknowledge myself either.
- funny feelings -

writing on a blog is no good.

edit: Did not make a tune; confirmed I am a hack